Something New

Well, here we are again. Yet another blog that I may or may not keep up with. I'm hoping to use this as more of a journal than a public, "Hey you! Read this!" type of thing. Many posts will likely be public, but I'd like it to still have a "Dear Diary" feel to it. I want a space where I can talk plainly and not have to try so hard at being witty. I want to be able to talk about my relationship with my husband. I want to talk about being a mother. I want to talk about how I'm really wanting and trying to improve myself. I want to be a better daughter, wife, mother, and just a better person in general. 

For the most part? I'm a happy person. I love to laugh and giggle; I think it's good for the soul. I'm a smartass and sarcasm is my middle name. My favorite movies are comedies. I enjoy finding the good in life. Sure I have fleeting moments of sadness or anger. There are a few topics that make me particularly tearful or ragey. But I work hard to not focus solely on those things. I feel it's important to look for the good, even in a bad situation. Depending on the situation, it can be difficult to keep that in mind, but I do try. Even with that, I know I can be better.

I'm not perfect. I have a LOT of things I need to work on in my life. I need to manage my time better. I need to focus on breathing when I get angry instead of just yelling and lashing out. I want to be stronger physically and emotionally. I want to focus my energy doing the most good I can. I want to have the courage to take my ideas and actually put them to use. I want to follow through with the tasks I say I will do. I need to be more active. I want to be able to teach my son meaningful skills and help him reach his milestones. I want to be the best mother I can be. I want to have a strong, lasting relationship with Charlie that will grow and flourish and make us both better for it. And I'm pretty certain that I can accomplish these things eventually.

It certainly does help to talk things out. So, I guess that's why I'm here...